Do you ever feel empty inside, as if nothing ever makes you satisfied or happy? If someone told me to write down what makes me happy, I would not know what to write. Every day I hope that I can find this driving force or topic that will lead me to my happiness, but I haven’t found it yet. As frustrating as it is at times, there is a small speck of hope in the future. Someone once told me to follow him and he will lead me to happiness, and I have seen that this person has a pure happiness with himself and with his life. I do not feel that anymore. I used to when I was younger like the saying is ignorance is bliss, and it is the truth. However, one cannot be ignorant after learning of so much heartache, violence, and disappointment is in the world and that the future holds. I am striving everyday to attain happiness, but I’m slowly losing hope.
I have love, I found seriously the first person in my life that I live everyday for, and want to spend every waking minute with, but they will be gone for whole year next year. He is the closest thing in my life to what happiness is, and now it will be overseas, nowhere close to me. I feel like no matter what I do I can never succeed. He is the only thing currently that is going right, so what happens next?
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